This Is Me Whether You Like It Or Not

Look I don't care to write out my feelings cause this is what blog is ment for, if that wasn't a form1 boy come told me that what news is spreading that I m confessing through internet to a girl??? Well to the person who really wanna know the truth, please read it right now..

You don't have the rights to judge who I like and what I m gonna do cause this is me if you don't like it then get the hell out infront of me cause I don't wanna see who are you too.. You wanna know what is happening right??? Ok I can tell you what happen, ya you are right that I like your classmate perhaps?? Does that affect you?? Ok that i don't really mind but let me tell you something I did what I suppose to do but in the end I get nothing so what do you think I m?? Does I like to act and do stupid stuff in order to make her happy?? I did try but I cant do anything better then a fella that perhaps just come in and told me he likes her and he can win her heart??

I did always try my best to do what I can for her, its fine for me if she dont understand it cause i dont care and I just wanna do my very best for her.. For the past 7 months, I felt that what I did is totally wasted and from this momet start I m always asking myself m I in the correct direction on what or where I m heading too... Should I continue hiding my feelings and in public is just him that every1 notice that he was the only 1 who likes her?? What about me?? Does there any1 who knows that I m there to care and would willing to do anything 4 her too?? I dont mind no1 understands how I feel cause I believe there is always I had my bunch of classmates always believe in me and cheer me up no matter what happen..

By the moment I really really really feel tired, can i quit by this moment??? I really hope I can but if I quit now it would be wasted for the past 7 months of waiting for her, well eventhough I dont quit, I notice that I dont stand a chance to be with her too so if any1 is happy about the decision I m gonna make so congratulations ok...

From this moment, I declare that I finally quit my love for her after 7 months.......

When You're Gone

Avril Lavigne Lyrics

Wednesday 17 September 2008

Please don't be sad cause whenever you are sad, i will be sad too... Anything that happen please don't keep it in your heart if you are unhappy... Every moment I saw you, I just feel that I am useless cause i know that I wasted another chance to gear up... Although you were just be with 1 friend and someone advice me to go front and talk to you, if not I will always be behind by a gear... I told him 1 thing I don't mind about all this stuff cause I had 4 queens and a king... Well this is a secret to every1 cause as long as I know they are there to help and support me when I needed to gear up... When I feel that the chance is close, I will gear up. To who ever my opponent are, I m sending you a message that I won't give any mercy on this stuff cause I admit I m really sensitive in it... Lastly I would advice to everyone who view through my blog, there is only 1 chance, if you don't grab it, it will be gone and you will regret if you miss out on that chance...










THE END!!!!

Sunday 14 September 2008

Yesterday was the mooncake festival night..It held in my school by the chinese society group... Everything is going out great but the thing is on me..I didn do my part eventhough I had the chance to talk to her but I didn...1 of her friends did ask me, why didn I didn go talk to her?? I was also wondering the same thing since she is alone how come I didn go and talk to her...In fact, when her friends leave her 1 by 1, she started to feel boring cause she had to wait for her parents to come and fetch her. From that moment starts, I've should had go over to talk to her but I didn cause I saw my opponent go over to her and hand her sis to her to let her play for a while...after that, I feel veri dissapointed cause I've could had make the 1st step before him...Fine !!! I don't know what should I do so I join my friends for a basketball match to release my anger and stuffs... When she leave, I felt regret cause I had a chance to talk to her but I didn. So it is like he had her attention for a while and I didn.. If thats the case for me to lose this battle, I'll regret for my life.. After I went home with Irwyn, it was around 12... We chatted about our stuffs till around 3a.m and think of many solutions to handle our problems... I really felt regret after I've miss the chance to talk to her till this morning when I woke up I still remember what happen yesterday...If I would had the chance now, I hope I can turn the clock back to yesterday the moments that I could be with her for a while..I don't know when will I had the next chance like yesterday cause that was a good chance for me and yet I didn do anything...DAMN!!!!



WHY AM I SO USELESS??????