Saying yes is easy but saying no is hard

Why do I say that?
Because I use to saying yes...
What did I use to saying yes?
I wanna give up on my relationship...
Why do I keep saying yes...
Because I'm tired...
The reason is because I'm tired and I wanna tell her that I give up on us...
Is it worth it to give up just because I'm tired?
I've been asking myself many many times in my mine....
I should not have been thinking this way...
The only thing I should feel now is relief and grateful for what I have now...
The every single moment I told her that I wanna quit is just from my mouth...
And deep down bottom of my heart, I din wanna let her go...
This is just too much a good thing to let go...
I will only be regret if I let go just like that..
I would not wanna let go a girl that can hardly be found like this...
I admit this is a gift from god that give me a chance to prove my worth to this girl I really loved..
Although sometimes I may hurt this little angel,
But I'll still try my best to get her back in her smile and get on to our lives...
I know everytime I mention about giving up it hurts her a lot...
Especially the quarrel one month ago...
Both of us stay up for few hours to find out what is the problem that is happening and solve together...
Maybe I'm not really confident in this relationship just yet that is why I'll feel that way...
But I think sooner or later it will be okay...
Things come and just go away...
If you don't treasure it well...
It will be just gone...
In the end, the person that lose will be yourself...
That is a thing that I didn't want it to happen in my life...
In my 17 years of age, this can be consider as the best relationship that had ever happen to me...
And I don't want it to go away...
From the start till the end, let me be the one be with you side by side and hand in hand till the very end of our life dear...
I give you a promise that you should always be remember...
No matter how far you go...
No matter how long we are apart...
I'll always be there waiting for you to come back to me...
I know it may hurt for the time we are apart...
But what makes us stay together eventhough we are apart is our love bond...
The trust and the true love between us...
I really believe in you and in us...
I know you will be the ideal person to me...
I don't wanna dissapoint you, your parents or mine...
I know you will be apart from me for awhile...
And I know I have to be strong for you...
Just remember one thing...
Whenever you feel sad,
Touch your heart and I'll be there with you...
I'll be happy if you are happy dear...
Thanks for every single moments we've been together...
I really cherished it...

LIM SU ANN...... CHRIS LOW LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.......

Ok... This is about what happen yesterday..

Ok... Lets start... We are suppose to go on double date with Fong and Jia Wei today... But then Jia Wei fall sick so they din join us for the double date instead there is only me and my dear... Well the day started by me taking taxi from my house to Ampang to meet Kenny in his house meanwhile waiting for dea to get ready... Then both of us take lrt to hang tuah to go to Times Square and play bowling... This is the first time I play since darling's birthday on March and I totally enjoyed... Not forgetting that dear has improve by striking and sparing^^ After that, we went to the arcade awhile to play air hockey... Both of us enjoyed ourselves and unfortunately I lose to her by 2:1...=( Then we went to shoot a few balls before we walk to Pavilion to catch our movie... On the way to pavilion, dear stop by at Isetan and ask me to have a look for some outfit for prom and I saw my classmate Farid with his family too... Before we went for lunch, we went to collect our tickets and the movie that we watch is A Perfect Get Away... After that we went to food court to have our lunch and we ate Teppanyaki for lunch before going up for movie... When I went to the counter to get myself a drink, I saw Kit Ting and her friends and suprisingly they watch the same movie as us... After the movie, we walk awhile around Pavilion before we took a taxi to school for the mooncake festival event... The event was kinda boring and not entertain... The only game they organise was haunted house which is totally not related to the mooncake event... A few of us like Fong, Kenny, Yan Jun, Shaun, Yi Sheng, Wai Kiat and Wilson came for the event and they give us senior a Mickey Mouse Lantern as suveniors... After the event, my parents came to school to fetch me and dear back home...

Finally today's post...

Early morning wake up at 7...
Do what?
Went over to Hariz house and walk with him to school to play basketball...
Not really nice cause there are only 7 of us and the sun is so hot...
They are...
Shaun..
Hariz...
Kok Huah...
Edward Lee...
Irwyn..
Wai Kiat
And me lo...
So we play til around 10 and rest till around 11 to cool down..
After that..
We went to a restaurant name Tappers...
The food there was kinda nice and cheap...
Meanwhile some of them were stealing Wi-Fi...hahaha
Then Shaun, Edward, Wai Kiat and I stay up for a movie...
While Irwyn, Hariz and Kok Huah went to Petaling Street to buy shoe...
The movie is G-Force...
It is a really funny and cute movie...
The whole cinema was so cold and after the movie...
Wai Kiat and I went back home while Shaun and Edward went to Oldtown at Central market to meet Hariz, Kok Huah and Irwyn...
Came back home...
Have a shower and sleep til now to blog...
hahaha...
Thats all I gonna say...
Bye Bye...
=)

This is the post for last monday 21-9-2009

Monday...
Mum not working so I slept till 12p.m...
Hahaha... Cause a day before I slept kinda late...
Mum bring me to Selayang a restaurant to eat claypot noodle...
So nice...
Then mum and I went to Wahyu Tesco to buy groceries...
The parking is free...
And we went for around 3 hours...
So it is kinda worth it...
Mum bought a stand fan which cause rm149...
Not forgetting the previous stand fan is spoiled by me...hahaha
I kinda like the new stand fan as it has remote control on it...
Hahaha... After that we went to pick up some food and things we needed before heading home...
After reaching home....
Mum ask me to fix the fan and I did it perfectly...hahaha...
During the night time,
Have dinner with grandparents and went to the shop to have a sit...
After that went home...
The end=)

This is the post for last sunday 20-9-2009

What a big day today for me...
Why?
Su Ann's parents is bringing me for breakfast...
Wow...
Its the first time in my life that a girl's parents bring me out for breakfast or any meal...
So happy and grateful...
Thank you uncle and auntie...
They came at around 8a.m to fetch me for breakfast at some where near Batu Caves...
The restaurant name was Pin Heong...
Early morning there were a lot of people eating...
And her dad keep asking me to eat more...
While her mum ask me when will I be taking my driving license...^^
After our meal...
Her dad drive us to have a look at where is Sri KDU...
Maybe they are gonna put her there...
After awhile...
We head to 1 Utama new wing...
Her parents walk together with the family while Su Ann and I walk our own ways...
She wanted to watch movie so we catched a movie entitle The Ugly Truth...
The movie was kinda funny and intersting...
Before the movie starts,
Her dad bring us for lunch again at some restaurant call Jack's Place=)
After the lunch we went for the movie...
And Su Ann also got herself a wallet from Wild Channel and get one for her brother as brithday present...
As time goes by,
It is late and we headed home together to my house and my mum fetch her home...
=)

This is the post for last friday 18-9-2009

The second day of holiday...
Went out with same bunch of friends again...
To watch movie but before that we went to school to play basketball...
And we stop at around 10.30 to leave for Pavilion...
We left school and head to some restaurant name "Tin Ha" and have lunch there...
This is the first outing that we have so many peoples and there are 13 of us....hahaha
Guess who are they?
Lets see...
Fong...
Fong square...
Yi Sheng...
Kok Huah...
Edward Lee...
Yan Jun...
Jen Wei...
Jen Kwok...
Shaun...
Irwyn...
Kenny...
Wai Kiat...
And lastly me again....
What is the title of our movie...
WHERE GOT GHOST...
Well this show include abit of horror and funny...
Really should go watch...
After the movie...
We head to Sg wang for arcade...
Some of them went back while some of us went to Low Yat to check out some stuff...
After that we went to a restaurant and eat again...
Before we finish it rains...
And Irwyn, Yan Jun and I ran over to the monorail station and take bus to the driving center...
And thank god we have all the information we wanted...
The End...
=)

This is the post for last thursday 17-9-2009

Last day of the trials...
Everyone was so happy and excited...
That it is finally over...
So we came up to a idea and plan few days before...
10 of us went to futsal on that day...
The players are...
Fong...
Fong square...
Shaun...
Edward Lee...
Yi Sheng...
Irwyn...
Yan Jun...
Jen Wei...
Kenny...
Wai Kiat
And myself...=)
So we have this 5 0n 5 game and we enjoyed it really much...
And not forgetting I got struck on the balls by Yan Jun.... OUCH!!
Hahahaha...
Anyway its ok and after that we went to Pelita nearby Ampang point to have our lunch...
And all of us went back after that...
Irwyn and Yan Jun follow my car and we went to the Driving Car place...
But unfortunately it is close by the time we reach there...
So sad...

The END
=)

Hoobastank- I Don't Think I Love You

I wonder what you'll take from me today
Sanity or just me breath away
It's hard to say
Impossible for me to tell
What always walking on egg shells
Who you're going to be from day to day to day

Chorus:
I wish that we would go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore,anymore

Wonder why it is that you don't see
What you've changed since we first met
And how much that is killing me
Know that I will always miss
The butterflies of our first kiss
And how you use to smile so easily

Chorus:
I wish that we would go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore,anymore

Bridge:
It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I don't think that I love you anymore,anymore

I'm sorry,I'm sorry
I never thought that it will come to this
I know I'll never get back
To how we were before
Cuz' I know that I don't love you anymore

It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I know that I don't love you anymore,anymore

I'm sorry...

Today when I was on9...
Suddenly someone rang the bell at my door...
I went out and have a look...
It was an old lady outside the door...
Asking for help as she was old and unable to work...
I tod of maybe this was those con people...
So I didn't went over...
I just say you seek help from other people la...
I feel I'm so cruel...
But this is just my step to be careful..
In the other way...
Whenever I see old woman...
I think of my grandma...
I always miss her...
Its been three years since she left us...
But I can always feel that she is with us...
I've been with her since I was young...
She was always the closest person to me...
Caring me...
Loving me...
Even when my parents wanna hit me or scold me...
She will always be the first one to protect me...
Before she passed away...
I admit I didn't really respect her...
N till the moment she leave us...
I cried...
I cried everyday since she left for the first two weeks...
My grandma has been there for me since I was a baby till I've enter my secondary...
Even my primary...
She always fetch me home by waiting for me at the entrance...
Till now I can only say that..
GRANDMA, I'M SORRY....
I MISS YOU SO MUCH....
I LOVE YOU...
No matter what...
I cant change the fact that she is gone...
To be with my grandpa and the god...
Hope you will always bless me and give me options when I'm stuck...
I'll do as what you say from the last day before you passed away...
I'll always remind it till the end of my life...
I don't wanna regret...
And most importantly...
I don wanna let you down...
Please come home and see us if you are free....
We will always be there for you...
I love you grandma....
=(